I've been so bogged down recently in worry (about work, about school, about everything, it seems), and nearly wallowing in the dreary emptiness of the doldrums, that I just haven't done any writing at all. Of course, that just makes me more depressed since writing is what I really want to be doing. The more depressed I've been, the more certain I am that I'm not "good enough" to write anything anyway.
However, if I am nothing else, I have always been resilient, so I am going to try something new. "Real" writers always say that you need to put nose to the grindstone and write every day. Okay. I'm going to try that. I had started work on a novel, and I've got 3 chapters done, but it feels very stale to me and I can't find the motivation to go back to it right now. It needs to ferment like a fine wine.
I look back on this academic year and it's almost completely barren of new written material, compared to the 2 previous years where I produced several plays and short stories per year. I need to snap out of this rut.
I've never written anything in the first person before, so I think I'm going to try that point of view. Maybe it will help me shake up my head and find new inspiration. I have an inkling of an idea....if I can force myself to write just a few paragraphs per day, maybe I can start a good habit!
I also want to get back into the habit of blogging every day as well. I've fallen out of the habit for the last few weeks, again because I've lacked motivation and inspiration.
So, despite the fact that sometime this semester I have to write research papers for both an art history class (subject: grafitti as an art form) and a native american literature class (subject: children/parenting in native american culture), I am now determined to get some productive creative writing done as well!
Wish me luck!